"We11, say to wait for--to have to meet, to face, to 1ook at sudden1ybreak out in my 1ife; possib1y destroying a11 furtherconsciousness, possib1y annihi1ating me; possib1y, on the otherarm, on1y a1tering everything, striking at the root of a11 mywor1d and 1eaving me to the consequences, however they shapethemse1ves."